and im fucking back on tumblr. of course. posting about the same fucking shit. i can’t be happy at school. i have a hard time letting myself be happy at all for extended periods of time. and all i can do is be scared shitless of the future, scarred by the past, and spend way too much time overthinking the present, but most of the time i’m just worrying about what’s already gone and what hasn’t happened yet to the point where the present is barely existing in my head at all.

it’s all in my fucking head.

i hate this.

i’m trying not to do thissssss

not to feel like this

and the more i fight it, the more it keeps coming

i hate school.

but i’m completely fine.

i will never deny that life is beautiful.